posted by susan-oh-susan / february 26 at 2:20 pm / uncategorized / 9 comments
Christmas Eve ended, I guess, in a stale mate. I didn’t text back, and he didn’t pound on the door, and I didn’t open it, and we never had a discussion. And he went downstairs and slept on the couch, and I have no idea what would have happened in the morning—I have no idea what I was planning to do, how I intended to act—if Cody and Tyler hadn’t woken up before him and found him sleeping on the couch.
I had finally fallen asleep, probably just as the boys and Nika were waking up, and I was asleep when the pounding on the door started.
“Mom? Mom? Open the door! Is this true? Is it true?” Cody.
Then, Tyler: “If it’s true, I’m going to kill the fucking bastard—Mom? It’s not true, is it?”
Cody: “Are you calling my girlfriend a liar?”
Nika: “Susan, Susan—I’m so sorry! I know I shouldn’t have said anything! Susan, will you forgive me? I’m so sorry! But Cody asked him, ‘Why are you sleeping on the couch?’ and he said, ‘Oh, your mother’s in a mood,’ and then they started this ridiculous boy-talk, about moody, unreasonable women, and I couldn’t stand it, I couldn’t stand it, I said, ‘Why don’t you tell them why she’s in a mood?’ and then it all came out!”
Cody: “Mom? Will you please open the door and talk to us?”
I can’t tell you how much I didn’t want to. I wanted to stay in my bed—our bed—our former bed?—forever.
I plodded to the door and opened it and found myself wrapped up in three sets of arms.
And I cried. Again.
I ruined Christmas.
9 comments on No, I ruined Christmas:
sugar&spice76: Cheating rat-fuck asshat, pardon my French, ruined Christmas. Your kids totally got that, right?
susan-oh-susan: They did. I still think—it would have been better if I pushed through. Until Boxing Day.
mommyshidinginthebathroom3: Your son’s girlfriend, what’s her name, Nika? She’s a bit uppity, hey? I mean, spilling the beans and all.
susan-oh-susan: She really was provoked. She told me the whole conversation later. The things John was saying. And turning his criticisms of me into a lecture to Cody on how to handle “his” woman. I don’t blame her.
mommyshidinginthebathroom3: But I bet you your son did.
susan-oh-susan: I don’t know. They did, amazingly, completely focus on blaming their dad.
BeautifulThingsEveryday: Amazingly? You didn’t expect that?
susan-oh-susan: They loved their dad so much.
sugar&spice76: Oh, honey. The more they loved him, the angrier they would be.
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